Sunday, 16 February 2014

Write to me, my love!

Write to me, my love.
For I shall guard that part of you with all my heart.
Do understand, your secret is safe with me.
Hold my hand , together we shall jump into the unknown.
For you are my only solace, my only love.

The flowers have bloomed for you to embrace them,
The fountains dance to see you smile,
The sun shines brighter to glisten upon your face,
I lie here and watch you soak it all in.
Write to me, my love.

Tell me about your adventures and hardships.
Tell me about the distant lands and the great men.
Tell me about the deserts and the snow.
For I will be a vivid listener,
Ardent and full of anticipation.

Tell me, because I will listen.
Tell me, because I love you.
Write to me, my love.

For I shall discover you in the hidden trails of the desert,
I will come looking for you in the barren battlefields,
I will find you amidst the dry grasslands.
And together let's jump into the unknown...

Write to me, for you will be eternal in my memories.
Before oblivion haunts us and death do us apart.
Write to me, my love!

Friday, 14 February 2014

Happy Birthday, to me!

I successfully completed sixteen years of existence , a week back. So far it has been an amazing day. It is this one day of the year where you get all the attention you need. People make you feel special, embrace your existence and just shower love. That is why I love birthdays!
The crazy midnight phone calls, texts and all the sweet Facebook wall posts. The cake cutting, balloons and cake facials. The tight hugs and loads of random people wishing you "Hey, Happy Birthday!" Unwrapping all those thoughtful gifts and Thanking people for all their love and for being the icing on the cake. It turned out to be a very pleasant day and not like any other day. I have all these wonderful people to thank for making it super cool. Birthday's are just so exciting.
Well I did turn sixteen and there is usually a lot of expectations attached to it. You know the whole sweet, sexy sixteen thing. You are finally into the older category of your teenage life. Sixteen is usually characterised as bold, beautiful, sexy and handsome! You throw a gala party, receive grand gifts and have a hell of a time.
But in my case it wasn't quite like that. It just felt like any other birthday but a little older. And I don't see any reason why people should call me a sixteen year old. I just don't fit into the conventional sixteen year old's category. I am practically still a potato. Okay so here are a few reasons why I am still not ready to be a sixteen year old.
1. I still use a baby toothbrush. ( Well, the dentist recommended.)
2. I cannot eat ice cream without rubbing it all over my face. ( unintentionally done, just a reflex thing)
3. I can bring out the worst in people.
4. I play around with kids and draw things on dusty cars.
5. I am pretty much romantically impaired.
6. I am a romantic only when it comes to food and fictional characters.
7. I turn into a koala bear, often.
The point is that my eating habits are that of a adolescent boy's and a very hungry animal. My mental age is that of a six year old. And let's not even get to the point where I know that if this continues then I will soon be a victim of social stigma!
(At the moment I can't think of more reasons. ) And I believe that there are loads of people out there just like me, A little immature, crazy and stupid. It is okay, we will figure things out sooner or later.
 But birthdays are inevitable and you gotta grow old. It is really confusing but it feels good to be sixteen, I guess.( Minus, all the hormones) Being sixteen is just over hyped, It isn't all that cool with drama or that bad either. We are all just trying to figure things out with the people whom we love, the people who wish the best for us. It is pretty nice though.
So, Happy Birthday to me! * To turning sixteen and denying it*
And and Happy Valentine's Day! Cupid's watching you.
     

Sunday, 2 February 2014

The Secret life of Tom, Dick and Harry.

" To see the world, things dangerous to come to, to see behind walls, draw closer, to find each other and to feel. That is the purpose of life"

I watched 'The Secret Life of Walter Mitty' recently. It was an amazing experience and it left me thinking about a lot of things. So long story short basically it is about this middle aged man who unwinds and discovers the purpose of life and finally boards the right train to take his journey of life. The story is very beautifully narrated.( Something which I can't do) So basically you should go watch it and the best part is who ever you are I am sure you can relate to it some way or the other.

I won't be preaching and telling you about these great life lessons that I have conceived in the process, because I am neither Athena's daughter nor Dalai Lama. People will say a million things to you about how to lead life and give the usual long speeches but it will all get to you, when you make mistakes,you learn and experience it. You know what they tell about learning the hard way.
I am just going to be writing about what I feel and think. If you can relate to it then well and good. I have a problem with expressing myself, it is just something I need to deal with  so here I am venting it all out because I am too scared to confront my feelings otherwise. This is just how I deal with it. We all have issues right?! We all lead this secret life that we ourselves are unaware of. It is  hidden somewhere deep down and maybe life just throws all these hardships and adversities for us to discover this secret life. By secret life, I don't mean to say the Hannah Montana sort of double life or some dark shady business, rather it is about the things that you REALLY want in life and we are often scared to convey it to others. This secret life could help you discover so many things with in you. Like most of the times fear eats up the best you have got to give. The secret life, the life that you have always dreamed of living- subconsciously, consciously or unconsciously. Is what you REALLY want. Your dream job, your dream house, romantic partner and all those intricate details of your dream life which you have kept a secret. As much as we all are told to dream big and aim for the stars, deep down we are all afraid and scared to dream big.That we might fall down and hurt ourselves and people might laugh.Most of the times we are just bothered about what other's might think of us. Socio-cultural influences do play a major role in our lives. People are always there to degrade you, pull you down and make you feel worth less. But the key is how we perceive this in the first place. This is easier said than done, but omit anything that causes harm to your-self .
 Have you ever noticed people saying that a particular incident was their turning point in life, maybe it's just that they realise that there was nothing to be afraid about in the first place. And most of us learn it the hard way and that is how it is.
Life is a gamble,you know like a game of poker. You don't know what is coming your way next and chances are that you may lose everything. Sometimes I feel that we might be better off  if we had nothing to lose or at least we thought that way. Maybe that will help us deal with things in a better way. But then most of the times it is always that we have something to lose. The odds may not be always in your favour. It is the evens that matter most of the time.
At the end of the day we are human beings with the ability to express our emotions and comprehend them. We are fragile, weak and broken. And when we realise this at some point in our lives it just makes you sadder. Then you are stuck in this vicious cycle of being aware of the reality and discovering yourself amidst all the internal chaos.
As children we are all happy. Maybe we will never be as happy as we were in our childhood. Then we all grow up. Growing up is hard and realising that you are growing up is ever harder. But it is okay. Just okay. The only thing that keeps us going is when we realise that there are million others just like us and maybe they even have it worse than us. Believing that the cause of your existence is for the greater good, something much bigger than the sum of your parts,is a purpose in itself.
Let us leave aside the negative aspects and flip the coin. It is very human to always hunt for the negative things in life and be pessimistic, that we often forget to look at the silver lining, the happy memories, the good things around us. We are just so caught up in this confused state of trying to understand and know everything that we just forget to take in the beauty of life. We are caught up with our messed up selves that we forget to acknowledge the people around us.
It is also okay to let others know how you feel and try to figure out things together. Share your opinions, ask for help, cry at your miseries and laugh at your foolishness. Tell people about your secret life, tell them how you feel. Because more than them doing anything, It will just make you feel better.
It is okay to participate in the small things in life, being there for people, discovering yourself, doing the things that make you truly happy. Because when you are old and senile sitting in some hospital bed, these are the things that will really matter.And don't let people tell you otherwise!

I did end up preaching. Thanks for reading, it means a lot.